Another year has passed and I start another new diary at work .. which all leaves me to ponder on what has happened over the last year or so and what the future will hold.

I’m still even after all this time amazed at quite how happy I am with Dr T, he is truly my ray of sunshine, (even when skies are grey…) and to think for all those years we were just friends without realising how happy life could be together (well I certainly didn’t realise I can’t speak for the Dr). Its also lead me to think how far our relationship has come since those awkward moments at the start of it (well they were awkward for me!). His hugs have never been surpassed and it was one of the things that got me through the xmas hassles, knowing that Boxing Day night I would be able to get one of his great hugs and just be me. I like the fact that I can be exactly who I am, although I think he’s calmed me down a bit (no bad thing) and maybe quieten me a little I still am essential still the same Caz; similarly I realise he’s never going to be a noisy and as manic as me but try to make a point of letting him (and other quiet souls like him) have their say in things. The other day we were discussing future accommodation plans (any rooms available in Lufbra for the next 6 months gratefully received via the comments box!) I felt the give & take attitude of the matter and other associated issues showed that we can be sensible and responsible and all together rather grown up whilst at other times let the child in us out (like New Year’s Snowball fight), which is just the way I like things to be. My mum once described me on a (deep and meaningful) Guider Training as ‘ever the Peter Pan’, she meant is as a positive thing, that I can be grown up and responsible but at the same time have that spark of childlike enthusiasm. Well I think that the spark keeps getting re-ignited in me by the presence of the real Peter Pan in the relationship, Dr T, you just watch his grin when he comes up with a cheeky idea (and when he’s just about to tickle you!)

LOL re-reading this entry I’m reminded of one of Dr T’s xmas pressies from me of a decision making dice …. I think I was appreciated as he even walked up Hellvelyn with it in his pocket and used it to make many decisions. … and you know what half the time he had his cheeky grin on when he used it!

Hmm so what did 2003 bring me? A trip to NZ which I still have fond memories of despite the team issues; many weekends with Dr T; Gascit; Pack Holiday; secondment to Highways.

Things on the Horizon for 2004. Weddings x 3 (one of which is my sister’s); Dr T meeting my extended family (and vice versa); A holiday sometime with Dr T; a possible move out of the flat depending on circumstances in about 6 months time ….

So we’ll see what 2004 brings us, its bound to have some ups and downs and we’ll be coming across some milestones before the year is out … we’ll see what that brings.

In the meantime I’m tidying up the flat a bit more to try and find some more space …. Hopefully in 2004 my flat will stay a bit more tidy than 2003!