A brief post whilst resting at home for a little while (to clean the fish tank and pack for The Lakes) before spending tonight over at the residence of Dr T's mum so we're all of 1/2hr closer to the lakes and half packed already!

This is a good thing as at the mo one of Dr T's most excellent hugs is urgently required as unfortunatly coutesy of my sister and her hubby to be (B&J) I've had a rather cr*p christmas. I'm still very negative about the whole festive period from the moment they arrived on xmas eve as it's made my christmas rather rubbish. You see my sister's hubby to be has to be the centre of everything and my sister seemed to crititcise everything I said or did. The only person there who seemed to realise I was less than happy was my mum (my dad isn't known for his detection of emotions) but she would let me enter conversation or discuss things with me but guess who hijacked it and directed to them. The subject of their wedding came up lots but it seemed that it was generally forgotton that I was in the room/house (so much so that my sister's hubby to be only realised I was going away for new year at lunch time today after my mum asked if I wanted to take any food with me .. despite their new year plans being discussed in the open at least 3 times!) for any conversations that went on. They then moaned at me being less than cheerful without asking why. As for the 'important job' its ended that I'm going to be an usher by a process of elimination rather than choice as I'm the only one free who will know who is related to my sister! At the mood I'm in at the moment and their general attutitude and treatment of me over the festive period I currently want to reject this but have decided to leave this decision until after the new year when I've had a chance to calm down after the last few days ... and found out how one does this in the rules of ettiquette.... At the mo the only reason I can see of going to my sister's wedding in the summer is to see my extended family and introduce Dr T to them. It also means that at the mo there are only two ways of my Parents seeing me for Easter as I don't want another trad family time to be destroyed by B & J; for me to be there either they aren't there or Dr T comes along to keep me sane! I know me not being at home for Easter and just spending the weekend in Pompey will not please my parents (particularly my mum as she doesn't see much of me) but I feel its got to the point that this needs to happen for everyone in my family to see how miserable they made my christmas this year. I think that B&J are well suited as Primary school teachers as they have to be at the centre of things with everyone loving them all the time. They are due at the SAGGA winter weekend to make up numbers so we reach the min we required for the PH House hire so if you're planning to go please feel free to put them down and criticise them for me! I shall unsurprisingly not be sharing a dorm with them!

Mind you despite the last very negative paragraph I'd like to make the point of thanking my Best Mate from School, Rosie, for her hug this morning and for making me laugh a lot (with the help of her little bro) as it seemed it was the only time I laughed all the time I was in Kent and Dr T for knowing he will hug me a bit later and that he cares and appreciates me despite what anyone else does. I'd also like to thank my parents (although they won't read this) but I want to say it as it annoys me that B&J's attitude and treatment of me has dulled what was a throughly excellent and bit surprising pressie of a brand new sewing machine (I was expecting a recon one at best).

I'm hoping my Boxing Day evening and New Year are somewhat happier and make up for things.... with the presence of Dr T at both I'm sure they will be!

Hope you all have an enjoyable New Year .... I'm currently hoping the rain I had on the way back doesn't spoil our time in the Lakes!